Firstly, let me apologise. For those of you that may have become regular readers (I should be so lucky eh?!), I am sorry I haven’t written for so long. In the same way that I could spend hours trying to justify why I’m not at my target weight yet (shock horror, I know!), I won’t try to justify why I haven’t written for so long because ultimately, it’s my fault.
So What’s New?
Well other than the year (insert comedic drum roll)? 2016 for so many people was a strange year. Me included. It went from starting the New Year with the promise of a new start and hopefully resolving things with my estranged husband, to being divorced and in a new relationship! When people say that your life can change in an instant, they’re really not wrong!
Although my ex-husband and I parted amicably, unfortunately, I was repeatedly told by many people that breakups often end up being messy. Sadly, this ended up being the case for me. I won’t go into detail (some things, in my opinion, should remain private), but I’m now in a position I didn’t want to be regarding the final division of assets. It’s frustrating, but I just have to try and hang in there and trust that things will work out eventually.
With 2016 holding so many negatives for so many people, I’d just like to take a moment to focus on the main positive thing that happened in my life during 2016.
15 years ago I dated someone that made me feel incredible. At only 16 and 19 respectively, we were so young and I was giddily in love. Sadly, we lost touch and during the last 14 years led totally different lives.
I am so happy to say that by chance, I found him on a social media site and after a couple of days of “should I, shouldn’t I”, I plucked up the courage to message him to see if he remembered me. He did remember me and we very quickly got back together. I’m not sure I’ve ever been so nervous about meeting up with someone! I was certain that once he saw me in person, that he would run for the hills (I’m no longer the fresh-faced, slim 16 year old he once knew!). The things I imagined couldn’t have been further from reality. He took one look at me, beamed his wonderful smile at me, hugged me and got tearful. It was such a lovely reunion.
After feeling dead inside for so long, he makes me feel alive again; that I’m worth something and that I’m truly loved. During my birthday trip to London in November, he asked me to be his wife, and I’m proud to say I accepted!
I know there are people out there that may be skeptical about me remarrying so quickly, but I say to those people that life is so short. Any one of us might not be lucky enough to venture into old age; 2016 was certainly proof of that with so many shock celebrity deaths! Instead of living my life in a permanent state of fear, I am taking a chance on happiness for once.
So…getting remarried means that I’m a bride-to-be AGAIN! Whilst I’m so very excited about getting to marry my wonderful man, I’m also a little worried. I STILL have so much weight to lose (prepare yourselves for the Slimming World spam on my social media sites!), I’m worried that I won’t be able to lose enough weight to look good in a wedding dress.
I intend to share my wedding with you guys, and welcome any tips (especially from those that have done it more than once) that you may have. Plans are already underway and I will enjoy sharing them with you in the upcoming months.
There’s so much to think about this year. ‘Proper’ employment being one of them! I am contemplating returning to teaching, but I am worried about the impact it will have on my family life. I miss the independence of having a job outside of home and I miss the monthly wage packet it brought too! I don’t want my children to miss out on having their mum there in mind body and spirit, Teaching took up so much of my time and my energy- I don’t want my family to suffer as a result of me having a little independence back. Esmé begins nursery just after Easter for a couple of hours a day. I think perhaps that once she is there full time, returning to teaching is something I would be able to do.
Well, enough of me rambling on! As ever, thank you for reading, and thank you for supporting me in my role as Mind Mood Mommy xx